The power of the Reconnection

  Categorised under: Alternative healing, Musings, Practical applications, the reconnection

The truth is a pathless land. You cannot reach it by any organisation which in itself becomes a cage which stops an individual from being totally free.

-Krisnamurti-

Notes on experiences after The Reconnection.

My personal Reconnection 2007, precipitated a profound change in my attitude towards life and relationships. At first I was not aware of the full impact. I expected bells, drums and mind blowing insights. Transformation with all the trimmings! The cessation of all pain.

Instead, my self-destructive feelings became more evident and threatening. I went into a decline. I felt self-loathing and became disillusioned with my life. Good heavens that wasn’t what I wanted or expected! But, I soon realised that I wanted a certain aspect of myself that had taken over my identity to fall away. The part of my identity that depended on the approval of my loved ones, friends, and colleagues for its existence. Over the years, I had adapted my thinking and way of life to fit in with others’ criteria. I had become a people pleaser. And, in many ways I became even more desperate.

During my meditation, I remembered Eric’s words, which conveyed this insight to me; “The purity and power of these frequencies are so high that all that which is not in truth, will fall away.”  I began to connect the dots. The light and information that was re-activated during my Reconnection had illuminated every part of my being. So much so, that it became clear to me that it was time for me to become true to my authentic being.

I initiated a process of analysis with an excellent Jungian Psychotherapist. I needed support and constant feedback as I explored the depth of my psyche – not for answers but to find that lost self. Throughout that experience I was aware that my foundation had changed and was becoming more firm and grounded. I knew that my reconnection to the axiatonal lines, ’strings and strands’, were supporting me . This part of my journey was profound and I reached a point when I could stand in my truth once more.

The greatest revelation came to me in 2008 while in India. I have been a ‘follower’ of an Eastern path, Sant Mat or Surat Shabd Yoga for 40 years. Over those years I had bravely and consistently tried to adhere to the precepts. Sant Mat is a devotional path. At the centre of this faith is the Living Master/Saint to whom you ultimately  must give all your devotion and see Him as God Incarnate. My journey was fraught with tremendous conflict, doubt and failure. Each time I came to a point of leaving the ‘path’ I would return only to battle on. I was bound and addicted to the idea of ‘a loving Father God’ through whom I would find a safe passage to the world beyond this one.

He once said at a Q & A session,”It’s either my way or hit the highway, brother!”

In October 2008, my husband and I visited the colony in the Punjab. An incident occurred there concerning a matter of protocol as to whether my son could visit us there, or not. The whole incident was handled without compassion. I found the courage to literally ‘pack my backpack and hit the highway’ with my son.

I am giving this incident as an example because I had a choice. I could either swallow my doubts and humiliation or take that step into the unknown. Later when I looked back, I knew that The Reconnection was one of the key factors that initiated a shift in consciousness and perception that gave me that confidence to walk away from this long term commitment without looking back. I knew that a great inner healing had taken place.

Quote; “If you are lucky, your healing will come in the form you anticipate. If you are really lucky, your healing will come in the form you’ve not even dreamed of - one which the Universe specifically has in mind for you.”

I relate this story for those who have received a personal Reconnection and may not have experienced outcomes that they expected.  We seek relief from suffering, cures for all our disease and sorrows. We pursue this dream relentlessly. We may become disappointed when healing may not come in the way we want it to. The question is – What is a cure? What is healing?

Suffering is part and parcel of conventional reality and is not going to go away with a flick of the magician’s wand. When we make the inner shift to a way of being in which we become equipoised in the face of the ups and downs of life, when we can turn our attention within and know we have a firm foundation from which to live our life with loving-kindness, we become liberated from the causes of our suffering.

The Reconnection was an auspicious event during which I experienced a ‘coming home’ to the truth of being and with in a relatively short time acted with honesty and moved on. It has been a helpful support on my journey.